Why do I expect justice? My mom tried to tell me when I was little that life isn't fair. I have not learned that lesson yet. The end of the story is, I resigned from my job today. The wicked supervisor not only lied she had other people lie and sign statements. I felt like I was in a nightmare. The investigator had my resignation slip out on the desk before I even came in. Tough choice, would you like to be fired or resign?
My brother had wanted to hire a lawyer and sue them. He told me it would go exactly like this. He was right. It just felt all wrong to go to war. I am a nurse and basically that is a servant. My job is to help people when they are the most vulnerable. I have been doing this since I was a little girl and put band aids on my dolls. Somehow being in a big legal battle doesn't jive with big court battles. War is for men.
But, I expected justice. I thought when this man looked into my eyes he would see that I was telling the truth. I cannot play poker. I cannot bluff. If I try to lie I wear a big sign of confession on my forehead. Life is about politics. Life is about how you play the game. I may have lost this round, but in the eternal perspective of things I did not lose. It is better to obey God than man. I will let the Lord go before me. I was not completely innocent. I admitted getting upset. This supervisor however flat out lied and she lied BIG. HUGE. Shocking really. As I answered the questions, "No sir, she did not identify that she was a house supervisor." "No sir, she did not inform me that I was on a speaker phone and she had witnesses." It got better. No soap opera could actually beat it. I did not cry in front of him. One tear escaped.
There is more out there to do. I know I can get another job. For Pete's sake I'm a nurse. I liked my job, that's the rub. I really liked it. Would I do it differently? Probably not. I have never had anyone talk to me like she did and I would probably get just as mad. Maybe next time though, I'll be more careful. Our message on Sunday was about the tongue and it having the ability to be a consuming fire. James chapter 3. Fires can escape our control. Fire can do a lot of damage. Fire can lay waste to what was good. Fire burns.
If there is anything besides being a fat bottomed girl that I have to struggle with, it is the tongue. Think before you speak. Respond don't react. Drama does not run in our family. None of us are rash, hasty, or quick to put our feet in mouth and chew.
Here is the geeky sheep thing again. I the geeky, can't run right, die easy sheep, have met with a wolf, a snake, or a lion, however, I am not an alone sheep. I have a super shepherd who can do all things. That includes making a way of escape. That includes making a different route, another path. Even if the geeky can't run right, hoof in mouth sheep has messed up, the shepherd loves her and will come to her aide. It is good to be with Him.