Chew on This

I went to my woman baby and said I was sorry. Crawled onto her bed with her and snuggled while she vented. Mothers can be stupid, but we are mothers, so our daughters will forgive us. I have learned after half of a century to just listen quietly. No comments during a vent session is very important for successful reconciliation. The hardest thing on this earth for me to do is to shut up.  Duct tape anyone?


Not only the frustration of living with your mother who blurts out whatever kind of crap she is thinking but ...


It's so hard to move to a completely different place. I remember what it was like leaving my good friends, the beach, the mountains, the trees, the FOOD. It's a big change.
She still hasn't found a girl friend, but she will. At least the kids are adjusting pretty well. They will feel better when they have their own place. As long as she works evenings and weekends though it's better for all of them to be here. We aren't the most attentive grandparents in the world but we are here. That gives them some security. We also need to go out more and see what fun is available.

I know I have needed to let you know after my last post that this was better but.....

this beast which a friend of mine said; I should have named Jethro....(notice the size of these paws?!?)

has been about as bad of a dog as he can be. Yes those are my glasses. What used to be my glasses. We found them out in the backyard. I say we but it was not me. I cannot see more than a foot from my face. My world is a soft fuzzy place with no crisp clear edges to things and certainly no details like little broken glasses in the grass. Sweet Jesus how to cultivate thanksgiving on this day?
I decided I was thankful that I didn't slit that dogs throat. I really did want to kill him. Hell hath no fury like a woman .... blinded by her dog.

You noticed of course that there is another chewed up item. That would be my remote. FIDO has also chewed up Jen's sunglasses. There have been other disasters of late, books, papers off of my desk, and food from the countertops. He has multiple chew toys, rawhide strips and anything else a dog could desire to chew up. He is just plain TALL. He can reach most anything with all four mondo paws on the ground. Should he decide to elevate said mondo paws and raise up, well that settles it. Destruction is inevitable. Do you wonder if this beastie has a death wish?
We have held discussions (Brutus and myself). I have informed him these behaviors could banish him to the great outdoors. He may become a yard dog.
He just looks at me with big brown eyes and says, "No you won't."
He has my number. How on God's green earth do I get his?  I wish I could walk him. He pulls to hard for me to train him. Something has to give- he is BORED. A playmate would help, like another beast to romp with. I can just see the HUNNY's face on that idea! I have not dared to say it out loud.
I myself do not think I could manage the stress of any more critters.

In the mean time.... the sweet fluffy Puffins is scoring points big time. He couldn't be sweeter. He purrs, he cat talks, he cuddles, he's not demanding except to be loved. I have switched him to canned food and he is blissed out. Who would have thought that stinky canned food could make a kitty so adorably happy? My stars, the dog lover is becoming a cat woman.  Will wonders never cease?

Sometimes it takes real determination to find gratitude. My husband rototilled the garden and maybe some irises were sacrificed during the job, but he tilled. The ground looks promising. I cannot focus on the future bug swarms. I must look at that earth we have amended until it is very good soil  and hope for the best. Thinking on the butterflies to come instead of the beetles. Think of the blooms to cut and arrange into vases in the house instead of rotting squash vines, attacked by the insect kingdom.

It's a battle everyday. Seems like ever since I decided to find thanksgiving and beauty in my life the battle has increased. It has.

This is winning.
I have an old pair of glasses to wear until my new ones from zenni optical arrive. My new glasses are $100 which for my prescription is amazing. Provision.
My Hunny has managed to save a bit and has a little emergency fund to buy the glasses. Praise God.
We have plenty of groceries, fresh fruit and spring greens for salad. Provision.
Our weather has been beautiful in a world full of trouble, how amazing is that? Wonder.
I did not kill my dog. I did not even beat him. I kept my temper. Miracle of all miracles.
The cup of coffee I am sipping on is so delicious. Satisfaction.
More and more of the things I need to buy are showing up at the dollar store. Amazing.
My dentist adjusted Lindsey's braces for free. Blessing.
My husband and I have been sitting in the garden together and just talking. Bonding.
I am still thinking of things to do. Maybe read stories to children. I love to read children's stories.
I am a very good reader. I am a very good driver.  Hope and humor.


Be encouraged if I can overcome negativity it is possible for anyone. No matter what your problems are you can too. My dog is peeing on the rug right now! No I am not kidding. GAH