Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Time for A Heart To Heart

This is not a usual state of affairs for me. I am weird like that. I don't like to leave dishes in the sink. My idea of doing the dishes means washing them,  then scouring the sink, and sweeping the floor. My Mom raised me like that. I'm so stinkin OCD about it that I would wash your dishes and sweep your floor too.   I am finding myself getting lazier as time goes by. Since I have been off of work it seems I am accomplishing less and less.                
Usually a room with this kind of mess going on would literally be driving me nuts. I am however quite content at the moment to just close the door. A lot of this stuff cannot be put away yet because there is no place to put it.  I did go through some boxes looking for stuff.

I found this. Talk about a blast from the past!!

Check out the hair do's, it was the nineties but 80's hair was still a big thing. I was still cute back then sort of and my grand babes--well two at once and lovin every minute of them.
Can you pick me out? ( Note the huge hint)

My class photo. Wow. You know I remember thinking that I had really learned a lot at school. Then I went to work--yeah reality shock.  Being a nurse has been the hardest but most rewarding work I have ever done. I have had a lot of physical challenges to overcome along the way. Times when I couldn't work because of my own health. But when I think about it; seems like the happiest times are when I am working hard. I must get a lot of self gratification from work. The crazy thing is when I am working I am always bitching complaining about how tired I am, and my aching back.

It's one of those times when I am not working again. Some people are just never satisfied. I am getting plenty of rest now! So what's up? I'm getting less and less acomplished.  Is it a loss of momentum? If you are a full time home maker, how do you stay energetic? What keeps us tackling the tasks at hand? How do we keep going every day when no one really cares if the dishes sit in the sink? If I don't do laundry my husband does it. Really, he is an amazing guy. My clothes don't get sorted out like I like but he has only wrecked a few items. An excuse to buy new,  not a bad price for not having to do the wash. 

Here is the deal, the rubber hitting the road part.

I am really getting bored. For the first time in my life I haven't a clue what to do next. I am in the middle of the disability application process-probably a big waste of time. They are going to deny me you know they will. I have to figure out a way to earn a little money from home. The wheels in my head are turning. How do people make money with their blogs? I like to blog, I wonder if I could make money blogging? I wonder if it would spoil my love of blogging.  Shoot, I wouldn't know where to begin.

For today the procrastination will continue, I'm thinking about this yarn and I closed the laundry room door.

The dishes will wait a bit longer...


Twisted Fencepost said...

I have a hard time staying motivated when there are people around interrupting my train of thought. But when I'm by myself, I get much more accomplished.
Wish I knew how to make money blogging. I know that you have to have a huge following, which I don't. Check out The Pioneer Woman's site. She has a huge following. One way to make money is by ads. But again you would have to have a lot of people clicking on those ads.

Tatersmama said...

LOL! I missed the hint at first, but girl, your name is on there!
I had a "smacking the head moment" when I *then* noticed the babies... and to tell you the truth, smacking my head does me no good at all.
Now if you're all into neatness and stuff, please don't check my post for today. Just keep going, okay?

Check out The Pioneer Woman's site...
That's what got me involved in blogging in the first place, and although I know I'll never be a "Ree", I love blogging too much to ever give it up. Lucrative or not.

Now let's put our thinking caps on, (does anyone ever say that anymore?) and see what we can come up with to bring in some extra $$'s..

Tricia said...

Making money from blogging is not as hard as it seems, but to make a significant amount, you must have an astronomical amount of readers. I have just made a choice that it is not where I want my blog to go. Maybe, that is because of the reasons I think and maybe it is because I know I don't have enough readers to really make money.

About staying motivated, one, it is truly impossible for me to stay motivated when I have physical limitations or when doctor visits are so frequent that it seems I am never home even though I am not working. Once those two obstacles are overcome, I am guessing you will be back at work. If you are not, the motivation for me comes from having things I want to do scheduled at the end of the day or week. If the house is clean, it is easier to have fun making a mess. ;)

But I really think you should just cut yourself some slack right now. After having been imobilized for that length of time, I am guessing that you have resigned yourself to not being able to get everything done. I would have. When your strength comes back and you are not battling pain every day, you will be motivated again. You have accomplished quite a bit along the way even with all the obstacles.

Blessings to you and yours.

Mental P Mama said...

I think you are being a little hard on yourself. You are going to be up and running soon enough. So go close the laundry room door. And knit one. Purl two.

joanne said...

I know when I have times of immobility, and there have been many, many, times...I start to feel like I don't know where I belong or what it is I should be doing with myself. I miss working and all the wonderful benefits that come with doing a job you love. I can't do that anymore. Ever. I don't really have an answer, all I can do is try and keep busy. Blogging helps, keeping the house picked up helps, but c'mon there's only so much you can do before boredom sets in. Sorry, I'm no help here..;p

Jeanie said...

I agree that you need to give yourself time to heal before you think too much about what comes next. Things may look very different when you are feeling well.

Kathy said...

You are supposed to be healing NOT cleaning, so just relax and keep those doors closed.


Karen Deborah said...

Um looks like I need to SAY that I am feeling really good! No crutches. How bout those old pitchas?

Julie Harward said...

I love pecans in or on anything too...thanks for your visit :D

Unknown said...

The dishes will wait, and with any luck someone will magically do them for you. I think you worry too much...take care of yourself first...everything else is secondary.

You were a cute nursing student.

Anonymous said...

Wow. I went through all that on my own and now see you going through it and realize it is probably the normal reaction. Because, you so know both you and are are soooooo normal!!! LOL!

I always do best when I am the busiest. Before we started homeschooling I went to work full time. I loved it! Our laundry never piled up, we sat down and ate meals together as a family every night, and our house was cleaner. The kids HATED being in day care though. Jacob cried to his Dad every night asking him to make me quit my job. It happened one morning after I completely lost it when the clothes I'd stayed up folding at midnight the night before ended up on the kids floors instead of in their drawers. It was an ugly scene. Sean decided right there it wasn't worth the money. I'd only been working 3 months.

I think, for me, when I don't have stuff to do I know that I can do those things later. It is easy to shut doors and put things off.

Staying at home is boring. That is why I started blogging.

Kathy said...

You sure have a bunch of very wise boggy friends. I love reading your comments.

Karen said...

I've found that the less I have to do in a day, the less I actually get accomplished. When I'm busy and rushed, I get so much more done. Weird. And apparently I'm not alone.

Kat said...

You know the saying, "If you want something done, give it to a busy person?" Well, I think that is true. I just don't know why.

It is difficult to stay motivated as a homemaker, but if I look at it more as my "job" to keep the house clean, etc., that seems to help. Plus, I am a bit OCD too and messes kinda drive me batty. ;)

Unknown said...

How about secret shopping? I mean, you wouldn't earn a whole lot. It is fun though. Something to think about for sure : )