Friday, April 9, 2010
Inside my head I am the same as when I was 20 or 30.
That is a definite delusion.
I recently had one of those moments of reality; in front of one the dreaded 3 way mirrors in a dressing room.
You know the kind. The same place where the lighting is bad, and you can visualize every dimple you have on your hind quarters.
I saw so much beef; I could have moo---ed!
It was Easter and we are going to go to California in June. I thought a new outfit was appropriate. I figured that I'd have some success if I went to a "good" store. I chose Chico's. The have sales ladies that can help you out. Guess what? I came out of there with a T-shirt. That's it. I'm modeling it for you in all my royal fatness.
It's OK you don't have to lie. Please don't say sweetly that I am alright. NO, I am not. I am not OK and probably you are not OK. I have never in my life been this big. This is what you call a negative epiphany. I have moved out of the category of "over weight" into "obese". That word just freaks me out! It sounds like OH BEAST or OH BEEF. It's a bad word. A horrid word. No wonder my little bitty feet are breaking. Look at them those little tiny feet trying to peak out from under those flared jeans.
The side profile shot.
Help me Jesus.
This has got to change.
I mean really, my profile could be on the funny Hallmark cards.
This is soooooo not me.
Just who is this imposter and when did she sneak in and steal the REAL Karen away?
Am I the only one who is surprised by my own self?
My husband has teased me at times.
He'll say, "water and air aren't fattening."
I used to hit him.
Now maybe I think there is some wisdom in that.
I have been reading about intermittent fasting as a way of life to maintain a healthy weight. You can eat what you want but only in a designated period of time. http://www.sacrificialdiet.com/
I am not there yet. The goal is 5 hours of eating a day.
The rest of the time you fast and just drink.
Does wine count as a food group? Yeah it has calories.
Can't stay drunk on the fasting hours--sorry about that.
I am thinking there is some real benefits to this. You really only need 2 meals in that time. Saves money-ka ching ka ching! I spend a lot for food. It COSTS a lot of money to fatten the calf maintain this girth.
Not to mention the secret stashes of candy desserts and gourmet items. You know the stuff that tastes delicious. So where are we now?
To start this I am quitting at 5pm. After 5 that's it. Done. Tea ok, water ok. Whatever I'm going to have has to be eaten before the witching hour my time limit. This has me eating for about 7 to 8 hours. When this becomes easy I'll challenge myself to start later in the morning or cut back in the evening. When I was young I actually practiced this when I needed to lose. I used to quit at 3 in the afternoon. I was about a size 3 then, so it worked. I also roller skated all over Santa Cruz. My long hair blowing in the breezes. Wowza how the diva--dived!!!!
The problem has been the lack of meaningful work, restricted activity, and sitting in front of the TV at night munching on anything not nailed down snacking.
The solutions have begun.
babyitting these little ones.
They keep me hopping and I just love them.
Aren't they cute?
My other big plus has been that I am going to
physical therapy. I love it.
It's like having a personal trainer.
Unlike the biggest loser where they don't care if
your puking your guts up, or getting injured. Yeah I know they have doctors there, they need them!
The PT therapist want you to get back in shape in a more timely manner, without injury.
I'll take some pictures of where I go, it's beautiful.
I'm in the pool and I love the water. I love to swim.
Why did I post these awful pictures and tell you?
Maybe some of you are struggling with this too.
Maybe you have had a recent traumatic encounter with the hideous 3 way mirrors.
Maybe you are wishing you could do SOMETHING to change.
I'm sharing my plan. These are the before pictures. I am going to change. You can just watch or you can join in. I have found that the best way to eat an elephant is one bite at a time. Now that I look like I have eaten one I can give advice.
Making changes are most successful in the same manner, one bite step at a time.
The important thing is to start.
How about you?