Friday, July 24, 2009

The Verdict

I have been praying. I asked God to show me clearly today what to do. I asked him to have my doctor have the time to really think about my situation, my job, the work I do, or did. I asked for a clear path.

Have you ever had a doc make you feel special? I'm being serious here. You know in this busy day when so much poop is hitting the fan on a daily basis not many people even remember how to be real anymore. I knew I liked him, I always liked him. I still clean surgical incisions with alcohol because I learned it from him, give em a bath in it, to keep them from infections. It works.

Our conversation went something like this.

Doc, "So how you doin honey those sandals working OK for ya?" ( I had ditched the crutches and the braces already. I was going back to work.)

Me, "Yeah, I'm alright." (thinking good maybe this means I can work)

Doc, "So you going to get your hip fixed?" (humm, could be a snag)

Me, "Well, actually I was thinkin about just forgetting about it and going back to work." (there it is just threw that bone out there)

Doc, "The core procedure?" (actually no, thinking about a job here)

Me, "No, nothing, just forget about it."

Doc, "Well, you could try that for awhile but it's hurtin you isn't it? ( did he really have to mention that?)

Me, "Yeah, it does." (it doesn't move very well either but I am not going to admit that out loud)

Doc, "This isn't play, this is the real deal. Your hip will get worse and hurt more and maybe break. You'll get really cranky, your a happy person. You need to fix it."

Me, "I feel bad about my job, they've been really good to me."

Doc, "You've been good too. Most nurses are grumpy. There should be premium pay for you."
He gives me a real thumbs up.

Doc, "This guy I want to fix your hip, he's going to be the guy to fix my mom's knee."

Me, "OK." (your killin me here with being so nice, just quit it.)

The nurse, "He's on a mission trip right now that's why you can't get in sooner."

Me, "OK." ( that's cool!)

Doc, "You fix your hip and you'll be up in 6 weeks fluffin and puffin, making your patients feel better."

So that's it. I went to talk to my manager and he was really cool about it. He's going to ask HR what the next step is. He's even going to ask if they can find me a desk job. Imagine that, a desk job, feels like being put out to pasture but I would be grateful for any job that I could do. It's so amazing to reap so much kindness from people. I know that it is true that we reap what we sow. We never reap at the same time as when we sow, but still it is a gift.

To have people go out of their way to be affirming and to help. It makes me so glad that I have been the kind of nurse I am for all these years. In my mind I know it makes a difference. From being sick a long time ago I knew it made a difference. This time after years of working hard, of seeing hundreds of faces of families pass before the eyes of my memory, this time I know down to my tippy toes; being kind makes a powerful difference. And something else, I have never been in control. I have always liked to pretend. It seems like we make plans and set goals to achieve this and that, but it's only by the grace of God that anything happens at all.

While we are in this get real mode. We have had two guests with the house a total mess, sheet rock dust on everything, stuff everywhere, the table isn't even cleared off. Guess what? I made a batch of biscuits and a pot of spaghetti and everyone had a good time in spite of it all. That's a first, I always like everything to be just right for guests. They enjoyed us anyway, they really did. Sometimes life can be so amazing that all you can do is just take a deep breath and go for the ride. Do you know?


Unknown said...

Sounds like a good visit with your doctor. I wish my doctor called me "honey"!

joanne said...

the Grace of God. I am always praying for are blessed indeed my friend...;p

Becky said...

Amazing! You will get all fixed up and be fluffin and puffin in no time lol. So happy you are enjoying your guests.

Chris H said...

I am so relieved things are looking up for you... a desk job... more surgery so you will be feeling better... it's all good.

WudWerkr said...

sounds like a meer six weeks and you will be back to your ole "Hippy chic" ways lol .

Go ahead and get the work done , cause the older the model the more the replacment parts cost , and as long as the drive train is good might as well invest in a new rear differential !

* walks out thinkin her honey gonna enjoy that one*

MaBunny said...

wow, you can't find nice docs that often anymore. Good luck with everything , and I'm glad you've ditched your crutches and such!

Schnitzel and the Trout said...

It sounds like good news to me. Take care of yourself, keep smiling and you can actually see an end to this painful situation. God Bless.

Debbie in CA : ) said...

Hello sweet friend,

I am still officially "away" from the blogworld, though my guest has gone. (I'm exhausted -- the good kind -- and ready to recuperate.) I popped on to take a peek at your updates . . .

Prayers flood out for you, grateful praises to God for a doctor who has kindness and compassion running through his practice. I will continue to pray (and probably give you a call real soon).

Much Love,

Lynne's Somewhat Invented Life said...

Good luck. It sounds like they love you at work. Isn't that a nice compliment, a desk job?

Mental P Mama said...

You are walking the walk, my friend. Good things come to good souls. I am hoping you are up and at 'em before you know it!

imbeingheldhostage said...

I love the fluffin and puffin...
Sounds like you're doing the right thing if things are falling into place for you-- great that your job is trying to accommodate. Good company trumps sheetrock dust-- just have fun!

Michelle said...

It sounds like things are falling into place for you. I have sent up a couple of prayers for you, even though I haven't popped by in a bit.

noble pig said...

Don't you even think of not fixing that hip. Stop worrying about everyone have to take care of yourself! Glad you are going to do it.

Anonymous said...

I love you Karen! God is looking out for you just as He always has and everything is going to work out! You listen to that doctor of yours and you do what you need to do.

Grandma Tillie's Bakery said...

Hey just stopping in to say hi my friend. The doc has decided to try radiation and a bit of chemo on my mom so that the mass will shrink and surgery will not be so hard on her. They are talking October now for surgery. Barium enema today, my sister arrives to help her tomorrow and the first radiation on Aug. 4th.

I am trying hard to keep my mouth shut and support her decisions on the treatment she decides to do.

I know you will be all right, I pray for you just like I pray for my mom. Healing and God's touch in your life, a spirit filled invasion of your very soul, every single day.


Flea said...

Sounds like you're in a fantastic place. Sounds like God wants you in good shape, whether you have the patience for it or not. :)

Unknown said...

This made me so thankful today Karen! Very, very thankful! I love knowing there are people in the world like this!